all right let’s talk something important and this time come again unusual. uh this is not what i want, okay i do the mistake and i’m so bad now. I realize i did the mistake, and i told to her why, but i should fix it now. But again, it’s not easy you know. Again and again there’s something i don’t wanna this things happen have to be come. WHY??? WHY OH WHY

i’m a stiff person who can’t easily shown my love. And now i’m in a difficult situation

The deal is this: Do or Gone. Well i have to think a lot to say something now and cheer her up, Gone means i don’t care about it. What i have to do is….call! yes i should call her! but that’s her choice if she wanna give her phone number…. :o

Well enough for this time, i should rebuild a chance now, this is the first time that i feel guilty before in a relationship, very first time, well i think i’ve get a lot of learn today

Well hey guys, it’s me again. Hope you never get boring if you see me again in twitter or facebook. Okay I really tired today, many tasks from school kills me. I hope you don’t get like what i’ve get.

Anyway one thing that i like for today is i just give a gift to her today. well i don’t care she wear it or she throw it hahaha at least i can answer my promise.

But there’s a problem for me. Should I move on. Everytime i asking to my self and i have to say, it’s so difficult. I’m too much fall down to her nightmare hahaha  well about love, i wish i can fix it now

My friends said that my imagine about love and relationship is too far from now. Well i always compare now and future and sometimes i can get that imagine. And it’s terrible if you don’t trust it

Sorry guys, I really lazy too write many sentences here today. Hopefully i can write it again next time… bye bye. Wish me luck for get her LOL

Well i don’t understand why everybody get stressed out and busy today, or maybe this weekend. I’m so sorry to say that but it’s true. I need help to many peoples and almost 80 percent says “i’m busy, sorry” It’s so stinks

I think people should study for tomorrow. No no it’s not should, it’s a must. But hey, this is weekend, why we all not enjoying today? Again and again the problem is because school assignments are too many to do. I’m back from bandung today and when i’m arrived, I quiet remember and realize that there’s many homework that i’ve to finish. Example like now. I’ve to make a script for english drama in my school. Seems easy but the fact is….. i can’t make it. I get stress now

Since i written in here, i became more easy going because whats in my mind have been said to here. So now i wanna tell you abou how complicated this life

If you understand why we don’t to find a love? at the moment i still don’t have the answer. Waiting is too long. But well, Find a love is not good. But maybe waiting a love is a right choice and you have to sacrifice it. A lot of time you waste it with yourself alone, maybe it’s same as me now. So sometimes without somebody my life is getting complicated. And now this text is too small for me to see in my computer, so i can’t read a lot. And forgive me if there’s a mistake words

Back to the topic. mmm at the moment the most complicating situation is my life. Hey maybe i’m too noisy to talk bout my lve but where i have to talk about this again? well somehow tumblr is become my diary hahaha shush

It’s a tiring day guys, and guess who? i will be stay alive till 12 midnight…………T-I-R-I-N-G

if today i can complain to my school, i wanna say that too lot of homework and the school never enjoy the holiday. I don’t mind is that islamic of catholic or international schools, but every school have same schudele so students have their agenda same as another student in many different schools

So Sunday, please be nice to me till midnight. And let her mind only thinking about me hehehe see you

earth? mmm i wanna visit deep in the sea, cause there’s a lot amazing unidentified creatures

ichaiput:

chichachicharito:

:’)

I love you man.utd!

unfortunantely there’s no chicharito in photo

Okay, this night in my room, i’m sick and headache and i get cold. plus i’m alone. my bbm is so quiet and i dunno where can i talk much to someone. Better i should tell something now

Let’s begin from my school. my school, 1 hour the distance from my home. Well my school is one of the best school in Indonesia, and maybe the only one the best moslem school in indonesia. One thing that i like is there’s no bullying, and friendly. ut there are many different if i compare with my JHS. simple, about friendships is so different. It’s so complecs if look again in my SHS rather than my JHS. but i can understands that, so that’s why at the moment i still loving my friend even they don’t like me enough

but what i dislike from my SHS, is the rules. and the grades… well if you believe how smart i am in JHS, think again when you see my report in SHS, i almost fail through to eleventh grades, but now i’m in social class, and…i think i’m happy in there. those subject im my SHS completely crazy, 4 must better at least more than 70. and then the moslem subjects have stays clear, no red. if you fail, you stay

i’m not hate my school enough, i like because my big cousin had school in there and he passed on 2004, i’m proud of him, name Gilang. he’s enter Pelita Harapan University as Graphic Design Multimedia, and now he always get a lot of project from many companies. I wish i can more from him, but if i can’t, at least i can follow his steps…till i get a girl same as her gf LOL

okay back again to my SHS. well i wanna critic one man. He is our vice-principal in my SHS. okay he is become my SHS vice-p since 2001

Seems he is okay, but if you know him a lot, well he is crazy, but we have to respect to him you know, so we respect that guy. otherwise, we can’t avoid hi, to be a principal.

i know i have to keep this things shut up, but i can’t, i wanna people know that no school have a perfect internal situation about something that give you a lot of passion, inovasion, but could be it become negative if he wanna only money and name, and i’m worry, if he surely can through as a P, i wonder my SHS it getting too tight in a rules, and i’m so scared it brings you live in jail

is this P.Ramlee as a famous director of movies in malaysia for 60’s or 70’s? or maybe Deddy Corbuzier, Indonesian mentalist and magician? no no this is my teacher< actually my english teacher

Well i’ve been commented about someone photo with my sister and we thought that someone isn’t pretty enough for our brother, but when i looked again some her photos, i knew there is an inner beauty that someone could show it to public. we all can, we all do cause we all have. But we don’t know how to show it, i’m the one who can’t show it, maybe i’m too bad as human in this world, well once again, the inner beauty is the key of someone who shown their charismatic and their positive mind to people

One thing for sure that god create us in different ways and different creature, and again we have to thanks to god that we created as perfect as we can’t imagine it. just let go any kind of difference between us. from eyes, nose, height, weight or anything. we should thanks to god about this.

About relationship, maybe we should be more patient as guy or girl who still haven’t someone to be in relationship. well i know it getting frustated cause what we begging with somebody is doesn’t match as reality. i wanna tell a story, about 2 weeks a go.

I like a girl but i never realize that she likes me too, so when i thought she didn’t do what i feel, i back-off and because i have my bff, i tell my feel to my bff, of course my bff don’t want the relationship cause she felt comfort as a friend with me. Then my mind flew to that girl, and i realize i did a big or maybe huge mistake, but it could happen anytime to every people. when i try again, she said to her friend that it’s enough, she just wanna be a friend. But actually, i realize too she too kind to other boys, so as i know, three boys try to catch her love. for me, i give up. And for the first time since i lost my first love, i couldn’t fulfil my day with someone whose i love cause they’re gone.

maybe i have to struggle to stay stand firm, but it’s not easy, sometimes i feel alone and walk as no fence in my left or right. maybe i walk in a rope and if i fallen down, there are a lot of crocodile will bite and eat me. i’m stressed until i get sick now, but i can’t explain it with my mouth, i’m only can explain as what i can feel in my soul, and then my hand moving to say this post

i just need a huge support from you all, help me to show my positive mind

this is candid! how that guy can saw me to the cam while he riding a motorbike?